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January 15 New Post: Do Scapegoats of Narcissistic Parents Get an Inheritance? Are There Any Statistics on This Phenomenon?
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November 3 New Post: The Difference Between Narcissists and Those with Antisocial Personality Disorder: Narcissists Feel Shame and Regret for Hurting Other People Even When it Doesn't Have to Do With Empathy, and Antisocial Personality Disordered Do Not
October 16 New Post: Why Shaming Your Children is Not Effective, How Narcissists Respond to Feelings of Shame, What You Can Do if You Are an Adult Child and Your Narcissistic Parents are Still Playing the Shame Game, and How to Start Healing from a Lifetime of Parental Shaming
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Monday, March 25, 2024

Silencing From Narcissistic Parents: "I wasn't allowed to talk about my feelings, thoughts and experiences, and if I tried to I was told to shut up or get over it."

 

This will be part of a series on stonewalling and silencing. This post concentrates more on silencing than on stonewalling.

Silencing is different than the silent treatment, but they do share a few things in common such as that the narcissist, malignant narcissist or sociopath (the more likely people to use it) has decided that what you have to say is either not worth hearing or worth understanding ... or that what you say doesn't fit in with their world view and general perspectives, or that they are not interested in what you have to say.

This can happen even if they accuse you of something and they walk away from any kind of defense or rebuttal to what you say. It can happen when they abuse you or hit you: they may say that any reactions you have towards their abuse are not to be expressed, or are not valid, and that they do not care how their abuse is effecting you. 

It also happens in war, and that would be the more extreme example.

Let us say some invaders have taken over a city, and a few residents are still left. The soldiers march into someone's house and tell them they have to leave, that the house belongs to the invaders now. A family member says to the soldiers, "You are stealing our house? Is that right? Would you like it if someone stole your house? We have nowhere to go!" 

A few soldiers don't want that kind of resistance, even if it is the truth, so they rough handle the member and toss him out the door and tell him to run or that he will be shot. 

So, that didn't work. Another family member decides not to handle things this way, so asks the soldiers if they can be transported out of their house in a truck with their belongings and food. 

"I think this one needs to be tossed out too", one soldier tells the others. "Listen, lady, this is a war, and you are lucky you didn't get killed in the bombing! If you want to live, I'd leave now!" And she does.

So the survivors that are left start shaking and clustering together in an ever tighter bunch, and try to compromise another way forward. "You will at least let us have a suitcase with clothes! We have to walk quite a ways out of here, and we need clothes to keep warm. We could die otherwise in the elements. You seem to have an interest in keeping us alive, of not shooting us, so can we take some clothes, please? Maybe let us take some bedding too? Is there anyway we can get some transportation out of here?" 

The head soldiers says, "Listen lady, I'm not up to hearing demands from you. Like I said, this is a war and our duty is to clear out these residences so that our people can move in. We have the right to kill you if you resist. Our leader has made that clear. If I were you, and some heavily armed soldiers walked into my house, I'd want to leave."

Some other soldiers suggest a meeting. They decide that the family can carry one suitcase or bundle out, and that they have 15 minutes to pack while being overseen so that they don't carry out anything the soldiers disapprove of, that can be made into a weapon. 

If anyone asks for a little more they are told to shut up, and if they ask for more time, they are told to shut up, and if they ask if they can carry another suitcase, they are told to shut up, that the orders are clear. 

And then if they cry, they are either beaten or told to shut up, and tossed out the door without their suitcase. They are told to be grateful that they are allowed anything at all. 

This is to say that silencing is very common when any type of aggression is going on, including child abuse. And child abuse with silencing is what this post is about. 

Some silencing kinds of sentences used in child abuse, and adult child abuse are:

(note: trigger warning):
- "We've been over this, and you are not to talk about it again." - even if the subject is something egregious that has to be solved (even lawfully solved, like the abuse of another family member). 
- "You need to get over the past. Live in the present."
- "You won't talk about this again if you know what is good for you."
- "If you're going to continue to talk, you will be punished."
- "If you insist on talking about that when you've been told not to, there will be dire consequences for you!"
- "If you know what is good for you, you will not continue down this path. You will learn to shut up when we tell you to."
- "I have never been interested in what you have to say, so I'd stop now."
- "You need to get over things. So you were hurt! Big deal! Everyone gets over it, but not you!"
- "I have no interest in continuing to hear what you have to say. I'm done."
- "I can't stand to hear you talk! It's all drivel. You can't even talk without stuttering. And stuttering is a sign of lying." - no it is not. Stuttering and stammering, and forgetting words, can happen when a survivor is around abusive people. It is actually a sign of trauma. 
- "Have I ever cared what you thought? No, I never did! So you can stop talking now!"
- "You need to let these things go! It doesn't do me any good, and it doesn't do you any good either if you think about it." (again, this kind of person doesn't understand how trauma works)
- "You are so brain-dead! You have absolutely nothing to say! I have better things to do than to listen to someone so stupid!"
- "You need to apologize to me, and then maybe we can talk. But we're only going to talk for five minutes and never talk about this again." (this person would also not understand trauma).
- "You can never say anything right, so you might as well not talk at at all."
- "Did I say I wanted to hear that!? No, I didn't! You can be silent now!"
- "You need to sit in your room until you can apologize to me for saying that! If you don't apologize for talking about it, then you won't have a parent who cares about you. Is that what you want? It's up to you to apologize and to be silent about this."
- "I can't stand you when you talk about this!"
- "What a bunch of nonsense! We're not talking about this subject again!"
- "If you continue with this, I'll never be able to hear another word you say!"
- "Shut up already!!"
- "Hearing all of your crap is never going to be good for me. You need to stop now!"
- "I can't stand to hear you talk!"
- "Okay! You're going to be punished for talking when I've made it clear I don't want to hear any more of it!"
- "You seriously need to get over the past. No one is going to go back into the past with you, no one cares about your past, and no one wants to hear about it any more."

One reason a child might bring up a subject over and over again is that for the child, issues are unresolved. They are unresolved for two reasons: 

# 1. To be redundant, but to also make clear this is important: If children keep bringing up a subject over and over again, it mainly means that it hasn't been resolved. Actually adults do it too, but they may not be as persistent about it. A narcissist would say, "it mainly means it hasn't been resolved in my child's mind."

No, that isn't what is happening. A parent who makes it known that they will silence a child out of some kind of existence in the parent's life, or in an on-going event like a silent treatment, means that the child will have trauma symptoms. Trauma isn't just a mind situation; it is an evolutionary involuntary brain situation: experiences which brought on the trauma are located and experienced in a different part of the brain than memories and are often experienced more as a present event than a past event, effecting the anterior cingulate cortex. And no, narcissists don't care about this. 

This means that unresolved trauma has to be resolved so that the brain can go back to normal. And the way it is resolved is to heal it to the extent where it becomes a mere memory than a nightmare (nightmares are the result of the intrusive memories and often the profound lack of sleep associated with PTSD, which are the result of the activation of the anterior cingulate cortex, as well as amygdala hijacking). This is where trauma therapy comes in, and why narcissists have to be out of your life altogether to give the activated parts of the brain some peace. 

And it is also necessary because narcissists typically love the silent treatment and other traumatization measures.  

If narcissists aren't interested in anything, they aren't interested in healing anyone, let alone healing anyone from trauma. They are not healers and never will be. Most of them are barely capable of remorse, and their type of empathy does not exist enough to be true healers of any kind of malady. They will continue the silencing and their hostilities. The good news is that this means that exceptionally few narcissists are going to be in the trauma therapy business, so it is likely you'll get the healing and empathy that you need there, as well as more sleep, more peace, less intrusive memories. 

The desire to talk to family members you used to be able to talk to can be problematic if they are not sympathetic to your plight. Most survivors make the mistake of sharing intimate details with certain family members they should not be sharing with (I've done it myself). And that lack of empathy in others, and especially if you are silenced because they want control over the topics you bring up, can bring back the intrusive memories, the anxiety, the lack of sleep, etc. You might not have to cut them all the way out, but realistically they are probably making you feel like you are dealing with another narcissist.

Families with narcissists in them typically do not want to be reminded of the traditions of abuse that the narcissists practice, and the silencing that they do, and they don't want you talking about all of the healing modalities you had to go through because of the family, so a narc will just have to get a smear campaign going, and brainwash a few minds and ---> out you go: as close to zero family members with empathy as the narcissist can create!

# 2. The second reason is that narcissists are not interested in resolving issues in relationships; they are only interested in getting their own way, chronically ... and manipulating character, and events, and the truth to suit getting their way. This is no secret. They let you know it over and over, and over and over again throughout your relationship with them, if you can call it a relationship at all. In their ambition to try to get other people not to hear you out, which can frustrate you, it will be bottled up until you can adequately share it with a trusted person - it's unhealthy, no doubt about it, and unhealthy blockages make for a lot of horrific symptoms and suffering, but unless you want to get hurt, you have to stop talking to people who have an agenda against you (and yes, silencing you counts). 

A real adult relationship is not going to be full of silencing other people. 

However, narcissistic families end up that way eventually, going against victims in favor of serving the narcissist, even if it takes 7 - 10 years to turn their backs on the victims. Calming and helping the narcissist usually comes first because narcissists are much louder than victims, and they make it plain that their emotional regulation (i.e. keeping them from raging and attacking) is more important than empathy for traumatized members - and they also get people more oriented towards panicked decisions (also the result of narc rages).

Reasonable decision-making by letting a member decide what they want to do about healing family discord is not all that likely in narcissistic families.

Loyalty to narcs tends to be high because they get people panicked, out of sorts, and hijacked by fake victim stories and false narratives enough to create fawning in other people, to do what the narc wants, and become sycophants so as to avoid their inevitable punishments and rage (we even see this in government). 

Also I would be extra careful and private if you are silenced by people who know the narcissist and who have chosen regulating them over compassion for you, or if they aggrandize the narcissist. Member-comparing is also a narcissistic family trait that they may practice, another bad sign. Again, real adult relationships aren't about comparing family members, and who is sweeter than whom, and who does more of something for a narc than another family member. And it goes without saying that narcs who insult and call members names should be avoided.  

 These are some of the things that can be going on with people who start to withdraw empathy from you and silence you from talking about things which effect you:
- They are being used or lied to in order that they go against you
- They are narcissists themselves or have narcissistic traits
- If you are a scapegoat, they are afraid of being scapegoated themselves, so they sacrifice the relationship with you to keep the head narcissist(s) happy or from going into a potential rage
- They are receiving money from the narcissist and feel that has to come first before you and your feelings do
- They are being charmed or promised something and feel they have to sacrifice you to get it
- They do not treasure the relationship with you, and don't really care what you say or feel 
- They think you are expendable "for now", but that they can get you back again if they want
- They aren't feeling well, and they need a temporary break from talking to others (but usually they tell you this so that they don't hurt your feelings, so that you won't think the relationship has been trashed)

What ever the reasons are, you're not likely to feel comfortable sharing anything with them. They have broken the trust that you used to have in them. It is just another walking on eggshells situation where you are being asked not to be yourself, not to share much of anything of import with them, and where you have to manage down the relationship to breadcrumbing diminishments. When you have to do that, it is a broken relationship that does not take you into consideration, only them.  

If they are silencing you with contemptuous words or tones, they often don't care about you any more than the narcissist does. Their brains have been hijacked by both fear and attention to the narcissist. It is a challenge and test for them: to submit to the narcissist and be ego fodder and a flying monkey for them over and over again.

These days, if I'm in a situation like this, I look for a lack of empathy first to clue me in as to their intentions towards me. If I hear, "I'm sorry. I know you have good intentions, and that you've been through a lot, and I don't want to lose you, but I just can't talk about this now. Can we be agreeable to that?" shows more empathy, more of a relationship than, for instance, "I'm not interested in what you have to say and I refuse to talk about your trauma, perspectives or issues again." The latter shows more hostility, that they aren't interested in an adult relationship; only a relationship on their own terms.

They may not be interested in a relationship at all.  

Ghosting is pretty common these days too, especially with the younger generation (or that's what I've heard from my own older generation). Don't talk to people who ghost you. Ghosting is a definitive statement. And if it is coming from someone who is part of a narcissistic family system, and you don't know why it was done, it's toxic.

Again, in real relationships, at least you are in communication as to why.  

A lot of people know you are traumatized, because they know what violent, power hungry, raging, gaslighting, rejecting people (who tend to be narcissists, or alcoholics with narcissistic traits) can do to your life, and if they don't show empathy for your plight, and can't see beyond what they want for themselves only, I'd say put them on some back burner (you might relegate them to the "unicorns, rainbows, bubbles and fluff" talk, if even that). The more insistent they are in not wanting to know you, or what you experienced, or how you think and feel, either they are extremely brainwashed, or lied to, or self serving, or entranced/traumatized by the narcissist, or they don't want a relationship with you to begin with ... or unfortunately they can be narcissists out to shut down people who are too much of a liability to them, or tell them what they want to hear.

Information should only be shared with people you trust whole heartedly, and where the relationship is not lopsided. That is obvious. It doesn't matter what the relationship was before they silenced you. Silencing does not belong in any close personal relationship, period. It falls under the category of "stonewalling" and is one of the four horseman of the apocalypse. When one of the four horseman is part of a relationship, usually what follows is that once that one person withdraws from wanting to hear what you feel, think and experience, then you will turn away too. It's the very normal common response, and scientifically vetted and proven.  

If you are trauma bonded, you may not turn away altogether or right away, but you will turn away ... until there is finally nothing left of your former relationship. 

I would also say silencing falls under contempt too, which is another one of the four horseman, unless the person is going through something temporarily and just cannot listen to upsetting information. Most people don't shut other people down unless contempt is present, which in these terms is "inconvenient hearing", "adversely hearing", and "hearing with prejudice or hate".   

When it comes to children, the damage of not being able to trust a parent with pertinent or critical information about you, also means both parties turning away from each other unless there is a trauma bond. With children, that is likely, unfortunately.

The "turning away" will be easier and more complete if you are falsely accused, but anger over the injustice can stick with you longer than the grief of losing a parent to silent treatments. 

A trauma bond with silencing, stonewalling and contemptuous parents is not just unhealthy, but downright toxic, and actually, if we are honest with ourselves, dangerous for a child, physically, emotionally, psychologically, including altering their immune system, altering their brain in some instances, and altering their ability to emotionally regulate efficiently. It is a lot of psychological and emotional neglect and harm at the very least. But usually there is so much more to it than that. 

A parent who stonewalls, silences and has contempt for their own child's thoughts, feelings and experiences, and is trying to intimidate a child with a continual trauma bond too, is probably abusing them - I'm 99 percent sure about that. I'm all for letting a child have another chance in a foster home with this going on. 

In terms of the sayings I featured above, every child abuse survivor I have ever known has gone through more of the silencing kinds of sayings than they can count. And what is even more incredible is that these parents keep doing this to their child when the child is a full adult. Go over these sayings again, and you will see that they are completely unfeeling and inappropriate adult-to-adult behavior. Imagine a parent talking this way to their adult child in front of children, and husband, and in-laws, and even great grandchildren. It's no wonder so many adult children eventually go no contact with parents who think this is fair, adequate, good behavior. But that is one of the things that never stops: child abuse doesn't stop unless the child stops it by removing themselves, whether a little or a lot. 

In fact, these phrases are typically part of daily life with a narcissist, malignant narcissist, and a sociopath. Most of these types of people like to silence individuals. The reasons they like to silence are pretty similar from one narcissist to the next, and one sociopath to the next. And they particularly silence children, and shame them about not being silent, and shame them for talking about any topic that is not something they want to hear, whether the words are or are not an immediate boost to their ego.  

When done to children, it can have serious ramifications, and one of them is stuffing thoughts, feelings and either giving up on verbal communications with their parent, or giving up on themselves as verbally competent intelligent people who can decipher right and wrong, truth and non-truth, and what their feelings and thoughts really are without interference from their out-of-control parent. All of the ramifications will be explored in another post. This post is more of a 101 introduction to the topic. 

As I've hinted at before, silencing has a lot of components of perspecticide, invalidation of feelings and thoughts, pretend mind-reading (very typical of narcissists), as well as a lot of gaslighting, and escalating contempt and prejudice due to the exceptionally fixed confirmation biases that narcissists are known for.  

What it sounds like when perspecticide, invalidation and pretend mind-reading are part of silencing:
- "I know what you are feeling and thinking, so you can stop talking now."
- "You think I'm going to sit here and listen to a bunch of lies?" - when their child is not lying. "You must really take me for a sucker! Ha! I'm not listening to any more of what you have to say! So you can be quiet now!"
- "You really think I'm going to believe that's what your feelings are!? Well I'm not, so you can be silent now!"
- "You really think you can talk people into believing anything! Well, you can't! I have the last word on who is going to believe what! So you can be silent." 
- "Sure you feel that way! I know a liar when I see one!" when they didn't lie. "You sure do think I can be hoodwinked! And that's why I don't choose to hear a word you have to say!"
- "I can't stand to hear what your feelings and thoughts are because they are all bullsh%t! You might as well keep that trap closed so no one has to hear you anymore!"
- "You don't really think that way. What you really think is that you have a lot of respect for your aunt, but that you are pretending not to so that she won't discipline you. So you can stop talking about your aunt now. I don't want to hear any more of it."
- "What a fake apology! You made me look bad! Next time just keep your mouth closed and I'll do the apologies for you!" (not a good idea, and here is why).
- "I know that you can't possibly feel that way. You just had a bad day. You're not looking at things straight. You need to listen to me. I know what you feel. You only think you do."
- "Why can't you see anything straight? Obviously I have to tell you what you think because you're too crazy to get it right. Now I'm burdened with that!" - all narcissists try to take hold of verbalizing what their victims are thinking and feeling, and they tell others that it is a burden that they are dealing with a crazy person who doesn't know their own mind, so they won't be accused of being controlling, and going for domination and power over that child (it is perspecticide, invalidation, mixed with gaslighting)
- "Do I have to listen to your feelings again? Perhaps you need to take this to a therapist." - good idea, except therapists will usually want you to separate from narcissists and sociopaths. 
- "I really don't want to talk about your feelings. I have better things to do. You should learn how to control your feelings so you won't need to talk about them."
- "I could care less about what you have to say about your feelings. I don't even think they are real feelings! I think they are excuses to hurt me, and to pretend that you didn't have the best parent."
- "Your feelings aren't important! They only exist when you want to see me as a bad parent. The rest of the time, they are put away. So I'm not listening to this any more."
- "I don't really like listening to your feelings and thoughts about anything. You should have been able to tell that I don't like listening to you. But you continue to hound me. Why can't you be nice and quiet like other children? Why can't you just be silent?"

What it sounds like when gaslighting is part of the silencing:
- "You know what you did, and I'm not hearing any more lies about it!" - trying to convince a child that the truth is a bunch of lies.
- "You know that you're acting like an innocent princess which is why I'm not listening to another word you say unless it is about your guilt!" - when they aren't guilty for anything
- "You are never aware of things that you do. You're crazy, do you understand? You know that you are because I let you know that you are. That's why I never listen to you, and why you need me to tell you of all the bad things you do, and all of the bad things that you are" - quite evil on the parent's part. 
- "You make a lot of assumptions and conjectures based on your own twisted mind which is why I don't listen to you. You need to stop talking." - also evil. 
- "I don't care to hear another word from your crazy perspectives!" 
- "I can't believe you still talk! You should have been silent long ago! You don't have anything worthwhile to say."
- "I wish you knew when to talk and when not to talk. You get it wrong every time!" 
- "Poor thing! It's your mind again! You never know how to perceive things, so I guess I'll have to tell you what is really going on. In the meantime, you need to be quiet because you get things wrong all of the time, even though you think you are right!"
- "I don't know how many times I've told you not to talk! But you keep doing it, and it all sounds insane! Stop now!" 
- "Your thoughts are so distorted! How can you think this way?! You should have had your head examined a long time ago! The least you can do is shut up already!"
- "You are faking at being sick! I can tell! So you better stop talking about it and get ready for school!" Narcissistic parents usually tell at least one of their children that they fake illnesses. I was in a study group about this phenomenon myself (perhaps some day I will share the findings).
- "Why, oh, why, can't you stop thinking about this and getting over the past. What's wrong with your mind that you can't just stop talking about this nonsense? Your feelings aren't that important to anyone but you!"  

What is incredible is that narcissists like being this way. They don't want to change it. 

Why?

Power, control and domination. They like being in charge of their child's self image, as well as telling them what they feel and think, and what they are doing wrong with how they might be feeling and thinking. 

Is it more compulsion than thinking about the ramifications clearly and "going after this aggressively"? I would say it depends on the narcissist.

WHY NARCISSISTS FEEL THEY HAVE A RIGHT TO TELL YOU
WHAT YOU THINK, FEEL AND EXPERIENCE
(from a trauma perspective)

Any person who tries to reach in aggressively to take over your feelings, thoughts and self esteem and verbalize them for you is probably on the Cluster B spectrum. There is a very good explanation for why narcissists feel they have a right to do this, and one of the reasons is that they were probably exposed to a lot of lying when they were a child. They learned that nothing is as it seems, so they assume people are lying a lot of the time, or most of the time, and that they, the narcissist, needs to fill it in with the truth. 

But by doing that, they also drive people away because the relationship is not about knowing what you truly think and feel; it is about them deciding whether you are lying or not, and filling it in with what ever they don't understand to be the truth right away. They compulsively decide what they want to believe or what they think your words should be replaced with.

And typically what they want to believe and what they want to replace it with will be a lot more hostile than what was meant, because narcissists typically grow up in abusive hostile circumstances. As we know, abusive environments can create as much PTSD as war does. And if the environment is also full of lying, which it usually is, then they are at war with lies too, except their overly-aggressive approach to replacing what people think and feel with their own spin on it, or their own flawed mind reading is, can create even more illusion (i.e. where they are lying to themselves).  

It has a lot to do with why and how they have scapegoats who they deem to be "all bad" too. That individual may remind them of the person in their early environment who lied all of the time, so they assume their scapegoat child is lying all of the time too. 

And to make matters worse, if their scapegoat disagrees with their narcissistic parent's assessments about them lying, then their narcissistic parent is likely to rage and hate the scapegoat more for pointing out the narcissist's flaws (at not being a perfect mind-reader and lie detector of the child). 

Scapegoats are told they are liars a lot, as well as being crazy, so it is no wonder that about 90 percent eventually go no contact with their parent. 

If the narcissistic parent isn't willing to work on all of their judgements and assumptions, then being in a relationship where you are constantly accused of lying, of not feeling what they say you feel, and of not thinking what they say you think, it is not a relationship that can work. It eventually ends up to be all that the relationship is about: constant accusations, constant judging (and lots of wrong judging at that), and so much silencing that it is barely a relationship at all (because most relationships are about talking things out and sharing). Again, it isn't about knowing you, but about aggressively invading you and your mind and your feelings with their dirty interpretations. 

The more wrong they are about their perceptions, the wider the rift, the less likely anything can be resolved. 

For instance invaders that try to convince a population that they are all Nazis and all hostile liars, and must be weeded out as vermin, and especially when it isn't true, are not going to gain the enemy's trust with that thought. They are going to meet with resistance at every turn (and possibly lose their entire standing army). Close personal relationships aren't much different. 

The "wrong turn" that narcissists take when growing up in an environment like this is that they decide they are going to be lie detectors (which is okay if you do it the right way, slowly, gathering a lot of evidence), and aggressively invade and punish people who they think are lying to them, while at the same time lie a lot themselves to protect themselves from any abuse or fall-out of their reputation. That often means keeping secrets, and extra-marital affairs, and can mean stealing and hiding things. None of this works in close personal relationships. 

One reason why scapegoats tend to become the truth-tellers and why truth tellers tend to become scapegoats in most narcissistic families is because they see more of the downsides of lying than the upsides, especially if a sibling is lying in order to get an unfair advantage over them. But they also tend to be more truthful than other family members because they see much more clearly the way lies are destructive to the entire family unit, and can also be disgusted with a narcissistic parent who will give themselves permission to lie over and over again, even for nefarious self serving purposes, but be completely rageful, intolerant and punishing of even the most innocent white lie of other family members. 

In other words, they are aware that the narcissistic parent that tells lies about them is destructive. They see that the narcissistic parent's lies about others to be destructive too. They see relationships become ruined over lies. They don't see the positives of lying, so they don't do it. 

Golden children can be rewarded for lying, especially if they are lying for the parent, and parent's reputation. 

SURVIVORS OF PARENTAL NARCISSISTIC ABUSE WEIGH IN
ON HOW IT FELT TO BE TOLD INSTEAD OF ASKED
WHAT THEY WERE FEELING, THINKING AND EXPERIENCING

I grabbed these from a number of forums and groups. Each entry marked with a "*" is another survivor.

 I did contribute to this in one entry (but again, anyone would be hard-pressed to know which one). Again, I chose entries where I didn't need to clean up grammar.

I thought these would be useful to see what others go through.

* I was never allowed to talk about my feelings about how I was abused and mistreated. But the prevailing attitude has always been that I “live in the past” when I try to talk about how emotionally hurt I was because nobody cared. And so because of that there is something wrong with me.  * Hard relate! My mother's go to response "quit feeling sorry for yourself".
There is nothing wrong with you. People have set you up to feel like you need permission to heal from being affected. They train us up to be always in survival mode and fear the day we begin to thrive.
Closure is something they will never allow, and they believe our closure is impossible without them. It's all a lie.
I so get it!

* I was told to forget about my oldest sister who died in a terrible accident! They didn't want to see me cry any more after five days !!! They wanted me to re-focus my attention on them. These people are monsters! They will never have empathy for us or anyone but themselves! Maybe the point is to forget about the parents who say these kinds of things so that you can adequately grieve and pay homage to the sister.

* I relate. My family does not understand why I can’t “let it go.” They are not interested in the truth or how the past affected me and the family as a whole. Instead, they soothe themselves in harmful ways and pretend everything is great. It’s not you. It’s them. Big hug.

* You don't just get over trauma. There is a reason why we don't snap out of it, and if we did, it would be a really unhealthy experience of compartmentalization. We all have a right to have our feelings heard and addressed. They certainly want their feelings addressed ALL OF THE TIME!! We're supposed to shut up about our our own feelings and their feelings are supposed to be front and center at ALL TIMES. Crazy-making bs that I don't want to be a part of any more. NC for me.

* “The past is alive in the present”…we can’t forget trauma because it haunts us in the present. People who invalidate us have no idea. There is nothing wrong with you, this is just what trauma does and people who are ignorant don’t understand. (Trauma therapist and trauma survivor here)

* Trauma experiences are stored in a different way than most memories. The trauma is experienced as more of a present event rather than a past event. This is why pushing the memories out often makes them bounce back harder in the form of disturbed sleep, anxiety and nightmares. It isn't healthy to stuff the feelings, and stuff your narrative no matter how much they want you to. You owe it to yourself to talk freely about traumatic experiences and have them addressed. Our minds keep them valid, and you have a right to keep them valid too. (another trauma therapist here)

* And these parents get away with it over and over again. Everyone else looks frozen while they push their unempathetic responses at you again and again. That's such a flaw in human beings and leads everyone else around them to be flying monkeys eventually, to feel that they have a right to shut you up too when ever you want to express yourself. Or they talk over you as though only their perceptions and feelings are valid. If you have to be that quiet in your family, and tiptoe around like your mind and feelings don't matter, you might as well be no contact.

* It's why a lot of us feel better when we are no contact. We weren't seen or heard any way. We didn't matter in that situation. We will always be more comfortable in situations where we matter to others. They think we go off and that we don't matter to other people too, because they have this iron-clad bias and devaluation against us, and an internal arrogance that tells them that that the way they experience things is better than the way you do. They would probably be surprised at how much we are loved.

* I hated being a scapegoat of this kind of crap. They would do it to me over and over again, at least a couple of times a week. Rage and then blame me for reacting. It's the game they all play so don't take it personally.
When I went almost completely silent and refused to answer their insipid self serving questions, and realized that showing my feelings or thoughts to them wasn't wise, they not only devalued me, they discarded me.
Lesson: they want you to talk, but only when asked, and on their terms. They want you to say what they want to hear, so that is all on their terms too. They want you to feel something, so that they'll stop raging, so that's on their terms too. They want you to only feel the way they want you to feel. They try to manipulate certain feelings out of you which doesn't work out so well for them because they aren't you and you have different feelings than they have. If you don't have the feelings they want you to have and demand that you have, they will call you crazy. That is obviously all on their terms too. Rinse, repeat week after week, year after year.
Then they send you to college and expect a phone call every week - without ever telling you that. When you don't call the first time, they rage and threaten to take college away. When they take college away, they call you inept because you don't have the skills they need you to have, and the money they require you make.
This is why it is no use to relate to narcissistic parents in any long term way. Everything they do is about ordering you around and manipulating certain feelings and calling other feelings you have that they don't want to deal with as "crazy". They want to control us to every little detail, even when and how we respond to them and their rages.
Not that I liked being discarded over not having the perfect feelings they thought I should have, but I definitely felt relieved when I could finally feel something without it being thought of as "Wrong! You need to feel this way!"
These kinds of parents don't know anything about trauma and traumatic reactions to being raged at twice or more times a week, and they rarely help us with the healthy expression of feelings. In fact, they don't even understand the workings of a healthy mind at all. For their sake we are supposed to stuff our feelings.
Everything they do is meant for them and their ego. I wasn't enough of an ego regulator and up-lifter so they just had to get rid of me somehow and cooked up a lie they refused to hear me refute.
After 14 years I am okay with it. I wouldn't have healed without it. I would be more like my sister who is nothing more than a constant ego think-u-lator for our parents. All of them seem so ignorant. A family's ignorance can definitely hurt you for a long while, but once you know more about this stuff than they do, your life will be much better, richer, more colorful than theirs ever was.
If I was still a kid, I would have put up a sign on my bedroom door that said, "You cannot control other people's feelings at all. Or their thoughts. Do not enter unless you understand."

* I never knew this before! I think you could actually use this to your advantage. Like pretend to have feelings you don't have to give them an ego boost. Kinda too late for me as they discarded me too and I was always confused because I didn't know this was how I was supposed to play their game. Confusion ended!

* Yea, it's how to play their game, but it isn't genuine. What if they tell you that you don't mean it? A lot of scapegoats are told by their narcissistic parents that you are a liar, that you are constantly pretending to get something out of them. It wouldn't have mattered no matter what you did. They are such paranoid individuals that when you are authentic, they think you lie, and when you lie they think you are authentic. That is because they are like that!
Just let them leave to their head games to use on other narcissists and psychopaths they know. I don't think this kind of game can end well for an empath. And besides it's a time-suck. I don't envy my sister who, as I said, is the ego think-u-lator. Having to think about their feelings while denying - or pretending - is no way to live.
Life is about finding your own feelings, thoughts, power and purpose, and putting descriptors and words to them. It is not about being sucked into their game of getting you to prop their ego for them 24/7.

* Thank you. I needed that. Yer right. It's time for me to stop being concerned with the way they think and feel and to find ways to understand the way I think and feel. My own feelings and thoughts were denied so long by them, and I also denied my own to serve theirs, even though nothing worked, and even though I never understood they were trying to play a game.
I'm totally out on my own without any contact, and it was their choice years ago, so I might as well use the time to figure everything out that I wasn't allowed to even wonder about when I was with them. It's not exactly like if I said, "Oh, I get the game now! I'm supposed to boost yer ego by pretending to have feelings different from the ones I actually had! I get it now! I'm supposed to deny my feelings and pretend to have other feelings that boost yers! Then I'm accepted! You're ego satisfied! Right?" - they would have beat me up AND kicked me out.
Granted, I didn't want to hear what you said about this, but it was the best thing I could have heard. Yer right that it is the wrong path for me. I would have had a role just like your sister!

* Exactly. She hasn't really done anything with her life except to pretend to think and feel the way my parents want her to. They don't like everything she feels and thinks either, and gets corrected constantly. But at least she's a willing slave to it all. I wasn't. My sister is the one who they hang up as an example of a "good child"! When she is a woman of 32 years old, not a little girl, and all she does is serve my parents? Anyone should be suspect at their claim that this is their good child and that I'm their bad child when I am married, have children, and help run a business with my husband, and have never been arrested or drunk. Any parent who wants to keep their child a child and who is touting that example as "the best child" is both evil and toxic.
Note that my sister has no ambitions except counter-manipulating my parents! And she pretends plenty! It's not a life I wanted, nor should any parent, so I accepted giving it up, and I'm way better off for it.

* When you are with parents like this you aren't allowed to talk about anything. They talk over you or they tell you what is real, what you're thinking and what you're feeling. Whether you are no contact or in contact, the result is the same. It's totally about silencing us so that we don't really exist for them. They make sure their existence, and their thoughts and feelings are known to everyone, and that we're their audience.
I think this is the worst thing about child abuse

* Therapy. That’s the safe place to work out stuff in the past and overcome issues to be more adaptive in the present. Unfortunately generally people don’t do the work and don’t know how to do the work to help others get there. So there are observations and feedback and not always too sensitive and hurts from the interference of others and lack of growth because of it allegedly, but there is a place to pursue that growth and the public or private arena just aren’t suited well to help. If you want to actually heal go talk to someone who knows how to help with it and don’t settle for the feedback of the prevailing attitude.My family’s favorite saying, ‘oh get over it.’

* I have gotten to the point where I have been silenced so much that it has destroyed my capacity to listen to my NM. I am finding that I blank out when she talks. Is it years and years of being manipulated by her, and my mind has just said, "No more manipulation"? Is it years and years of gaslighting to the point where if I respond to anything, she will call me crazy? Is it my choice to blank out when she talks? It doesn't feel like it. It might be good to know what she is talking about so that I don't get a surprise attack. I have no idea what she has said most of the time these days. It's like I come out of a dream after she is done talking. No one else creates this in me, except her. Actually Trump on T.V. can make my mind go blank too. I hear only so much and then "wipe out!" and I'm gone.
Is this common?

* I have no idea if it is common, but it might be trauma related. I think if we compare it to war, we turn off the continual sounds of guns, bombs and airplanes to survive. When your brain is over-loaded with attacks, maybe you just enter a space where those noises are cut off?

* Yea, like when she begins to say anything, I roll my eyes, and then I don't hear anything more. Maybe there is nothing worth hearing, but I wouldn't know because it seems automatic at this point. One time she was screaming at me and the people around us were surprised I didn't respond. I feel like I live in my head so much. It's like I've got a separate world going on inside, and why bother pretending I'm in a one sided conversation with an NM who can't hear or understand what I'm saying. She either has layers of defenses if I respond, or goes on the attack if I'm not saying something she doesn't want to hear. Maybe she blanks out on me too when I talk which is why she interrupts me every time I respond. I'm not really a part of her monologue. I'm just a gravestone she decides she needs to vent to and about. 

* I think we are always dead to them. They are primarily assuaging how much power and control they can detect we are willing to give them, and as a side line, wondering what we think of them, and whether we place them up or down on a hierarchy that for a lot of us doesn't even exist.

* Oof, I could have easily written this.
There is nothing wrong with you. Someone(s) traumatized you and it's hard to move forward when you've never been able to get validation or resolution or closure.
Idk if this helps, but coming to the conclusion that my family would never be able to give me any of that and working on myself was how I got my closure.

* agree with all of this
♥️ we’ve all experienced this to some extent in this group. So, share those feelings whether it be rage, disappointment, rejection, whatever it is here with us. It’s a safe place to get the recognition and validation. You’re seen. Keep going lovely. You’re not alone

* This is all gaslighting. It's about saying, "You're too crazy to know what you think and feel. So I'll tell you!" And the worst of it is that they can punish you for how they interpret your feelings and thoughts, especially if they sense that you are bucking their so-called entitlements to control you all of the time, especially if they think you are hurting their ego.
Be careful of going along with this belief that they are mind-readers and can tell what you are thinking and feeling just to get some peace. I did this, and it made them even more entitled to tell me what I was thinking and feeling, and gave them a sense that they really were great mind readers. They are not.
Even tho defending yourself and arguing with them is really uncomfortable, it keeps them from going down the rabbit hole of thinking that they are super human mind readers. They are not even close. We all know that. It takes empathy to be able to understand other people. They don't have that ability and that needs to be drilled into them over and over again.
Once they get the feeling that they are mind readers - watch out! They will punish you for all sorts of things that are not even happening! They act more like sociopaths at that point than narcissists.

* Having people tell you what you feel is the worst kind of human interaction I can fathom. It's like being imprisoned for crimes you did not commit. When I was a child I was constantly accused for things I didn't feel. And yes, I was punished for them. It's like our parents have decided they are in a war with us and that they have to strike us down before we find out what they are trying to do to us. It's like they are in fear of phantom enemies.
I think this is why parents have scapegoats.
Needless to say I was discarded once I turned into an adult.

* Ongoing gaslighting and emotional manipulation. This is the way they keep the dysfunctional system in place and their foot pressed on our throats. I'm in the process of growing my capacity to honor my needs and validate my experiences within that toxic system, regardless of their agenda to keep me prisoner of their toxicity.

* My mom's favorite response is, "So what do you want?!" Or, "Well, that was a long time ago. Time to move on, that's what adults do." Not only is this stuff *not* really in the past because the abuse continues to this day, but we werent allowed to feel and process our feelings when the incidents were happening. They're never going to take responsibility. They're never going to understand that the closure we need is healthy and normal, and they're the dysfunctional ones for denying and hindering that. The way you felt and feel about what happened to you is valid. This is part of how they try to silence us so they can continue as they always have. You deserve better. Talk to chosen family and friends you trust who are in a good place to support and listen, and if you have access to a trauma-qualified therapist it can be a wonderful help in self-validation and processing all this stuff that you've never been safe to address. You are not alone.
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* Narcissists will silence you over things that bring them shame, as parents, as people, per their reputation in the family or community. They don't like to know they aren't perfect either, that they make as many mistakes as other people, if not more of them. It is typical for them to silence you, and then give you the silent treatment, as though you have callously hurt them by bringing up a topic, even if it is an important topic that most parents would discuss with their child. Realize that this is part of narcissism, and if they refuse to talk, you can walk away. Some narcissists will make sure the shame lands on your shoulders instead of on theirs, which is why this sometimes graduates to the silent treatment, were they try to make you out to be the most shameful person that ever lived. Don't be influenced by that. It isn't your fault.
(said by a therapist)

* I have gotten numb to the silent treatment. When I get the silent treatment, I tend to talk to other people more. And when NM is in not in one of her silent treatment modes and gets really talkative, I get quiet and so reserved you'd probably think I was a zombie.

* Please call a domestic violence shelter and ask if they offer trauma consell8ng. That is what I chose to do. Trauma is sonething they 7nderstand and can help with. Or ask your doctor for numbers of other associations that may. . You are worth it. Childhood trauma is just as valid as any trauma. Your feelings now and your feelings as a child are also valid.

* Look at it this way. Manipulating us to have certain feelings or no feelings at all means they don't know us and never will. They will claim to know us throughout our childhood, and even through adulthood even when we are estranged, but how can you know someone when they can't tell their parent what they really think and feel, when the parent tries to take charge of that? They don't know anything. Literally, they don't you any better than a neighbor they wave to but never talk to.
And we are expected to live in that environment full time?
We are nothing more than a neighbor they wave to. They can register that we exist and that is about all.
And that is what makes them really, really bad parents. You can't just acknowledge that your child exists, and that you're the only one who gets to decide what they are feeling and thinking, any more than a neighbor would put up with another neighbor deciding what they are thinking and feeling based on what they see through a window.
But that's what it is like growing up with disordered parents.

* Yea, and it's one of those situations where the window is translucent, where they can tell you're there, but only the rough shape.
This is all so relatable. I can't tell you how many times I thought, "My father doesn't know me or understand me." His accusations of hostility were so off the wall. He determined that I ruined his life! No use in defending myself or talking. He decided whether I defended myself or not. I tried to get him to hear a reasonable perspective on what I was actually thinking and feeling. He was determined to wipe it all out and put his interpretation on it.
Getting away from my father was the best thing I could do. I could explore what I thought and felt rather than have it shot down over and over again without discussion. I still see him once in awhile in large family gatherings, and he still does it there, does all of the talking about what I do, feel, think, etc., but I also make it clear how often we see each other, like once every three years and only at big family events, and that he doesn't know me or my life at all.
They say that family will stick together against a scapegoat, but I think he is just too domineering and crazy for a lot of them to take seriously. He's seen as an interrupting attention-seeking blow-hard with a bad swearing and drinking problem. An unpleasant person in other words.

* Classic manipulation by ppl who don't want to face what they've done or be accountable for their actions. This is one of their favorite go-tos.

* This is why the gray rock method doesn't work. Who ever thought that up had to have their head examined. It only works if you want to keep the more egregious abuse at bay, but only for a little while. They will still want to start up an argument to get their narcissistic supply, and denying them that by distracting them with boring subjects is going to make them enraged.
They constantly make up what you feel and think whether you are gray rock or not. And they try to get arguments going about it too.
Every therapist should suggest going no contact first and foremost, and really press their clients to consider it, and if the client refuses, then only talk about the gray rock method then. However, I think people who decide what you're feeling all of the time are going to be the people who will not stand for gray rock and be determined to punish you for not being drawn into an argument.
Narcissists are not reasonable and they are pathologically stupid about how to relate to other people.

* Highly relatable. The general public have a very low emotional tolerance for hearing about abuse. The denial is strong. Nothing compared to our abusers though.
I can confirm that having therapy with a psychologist specializing in trauma has been incredibly healing and massively cathartic.

* Same here. My NM always said: "You've always felt like you got the short end of the stick". And I always believed I was not worthy of her love- let alone anyone else's. I'm at the beginning of my healing journey and so far going NC has been the best decision I've ever made.

* I tried the gray rock method. It means your family can attribute more feelings to you that you're not having because you are no longer defending yourself.
NC is the only way to go. It frees you from the internal depression, rage and helplessness you feel constantly when your parent guts out your real feelings and thoughts with their evil intentioned ones over and over for eternity. You can never get out of feeling that way without going NC.
The depression, rage and helplessness can eat away at your soul.

* And not only that, but they think they are good parents when they do this, and that we should be eternally grateful to them for getting us wrong all of the time. Cuckoo.

* Don't most of us stop talking when they get us wrong? Won't they punish us for explaining ourselves more than if we kept silent? Don't most of these parents want us silent so they can attribute things to us without blow back?

* My GC has denied my truth forever and I’ve finally cut him out of my life for it, among other things. My husband and kids however give me the validation and understanding that I need and I appreciate it so much. AND THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH YOU!

* They'd tell me, "You're obsessed with the past!" the day after they shouted me down and wouldn't let me talk about an experience I had that any parent would be concerned about. They didn't want to listen to what I had to say no matter what.
Why didn't they want to listen to it? Because they have no empathy. So instead of saying, "I don't want to listen to it because I have no empathy, and you don't want me to fake that, do you?" they say, "You're obsessed with the past!" They try to find the flaw in you rather than make it about their own lack of empathy.
In your mind, just call it for what it is: their lack of empathy speech. And then laugh at how they desperately, desperately, and without success, try to make it about a flaw in you. It's their "perfect" blame-shifting tactic at work, except it isn't so perfect because we can see right through it.

* You have to be very selective of who you share with. If I would ever get that comment my response would be that I live very much in the present but I have not forgotten the past. The past informs my future.

* I think this is just another patriarchal thing that narcissists take advantage of. You are only allowed to talk if you are a man. They can say absolutely anything want, but the girls and women in the house have to shut up and listen to a man order them around. It is how my mother used our stepfather. She'd tell him what orders to give us, and he gave them. I was hushed into submission so many times and my brother was asked for the truth. It was a barely survivable environment and one in which I felt I had to go no contact with.

* Interesting about that. Yes, they will use any old standard to get girls to be submissive. My mother wore the pants in the family, and my father was the one who she decided needed to listen to her. If he confronted her, she'd get retaliatory and run away. Years later he no longer wanted to hear her words because she lied about so many affairs. He said she'd lie about anything at that point. Then the family split up, and after that she decided I had to listen to her and become an absolutely submissive part of my former self. My brother was spared and was allowed to say anything, and he took after her, lying all of the time about nearly everything.

* Wow, so he let his wife talk and decide everything, including silencing others of the same sex?

* She said she liked men more than women. She said that all mothers pretend to love their daughters, but that they really don't. They only love their sons first and their husbands and lovers for a little while until they get sick of them and want to find another. She said she had no use of little girls unless they were like maids. She had no trouble hiding her feelings about that to me. At age 16, she no longer wanted me and I went to live with my grandmother. My grandmother didn't really like girls any more than my mother. I went no contact with that side of my family when my daughter was born.

* I have to say that I'm still in shock over the fact that my NM refused to talk to me about my brother's bullying and his domestic violence of his ex-wife and most of his children. She insisted I apologize to my brother, and when I wouldn't (I did say it was crazy to apologize which probably injured her poor ego), she said she didn't want to talk about my brother again. After a couple of months went by, she gave me a life-long silent treatment. She spread a lot of false narratives about me to get other people to vilify me.
It's amazing that they think their lies will re-instate their bigger than life ego. It's amazing when you find out they don't love you and that all they care about is that you apologize to abusers in the family.
It's amazing that they'll give you up just to promote a false fantasy. It's amazing that they don't care about you at all when they do their final discard after a life time of pretending to love you. It's amazing how little they care about and for their own children. It's amazing that they can live with what they've done without reflection or remorse. It's amazing that social services said that they'd take me if they didn't straighten out their act, but that they keep re-playing their act after your childhood has ended, and that they show no self reflection over being a bad parent. It's amazing that they are out to prove that you are a worse child than they are a bad parent, and again, when they have to make up stories about what you did, and what they did is in writing by a head psychiatrist at a mental health facility.
It's amazing that they will do anything, and I mean anything, to protect their sorry ego. It's amazing how far they will go to that end. They will sacrifice everything and anything to honor their ego. If they have to protect their ego with that many lies, maybe their ego isn't worth protecting, but do they consider that? No. They'll give up every relationship, everything they have, everything they are, to hang on to protecting their ego, but will stop at nothing to shoot yours down, over and over, and over again.
Maybe silence is golden when their ego protections have gotten to this kind of toxic level.

* Protecting their ego when they have done wrong is always going to be toxic - for everyone. Most of the people left in their lives will be effected by it too, but they don't realize it right away.

* Narcissism is always going to about protecting their ego. It's a disease of admiring the self at all cost.

* Knowing this, it is possible not to care about them any more than they care about you. The requirement to pump up their ego doesn't do you any favors, and it certainly doesn't do them any favors. They make it a life and death issue, and it is not. They need to learn that. They can't have you around if they want to pretend the mirror has no cracks. If they have you around, they have to be reminded that they sacrificed their child and lied about their child to protect their ego. Is that what they want for their lives? No way.
It is why they move on in a cold way.
I think we owe it to ourselves to realize that talking to them is always going to be about how well we are ego pumping. Enjoy the silence as much as you can, and don't take their silent treatment as a reflection on you.

* I have learned how to deal with my NM's silencing and silent treatments and I am no longer effected by them. I have learned they are ego temper tantrums and that they are responsible for building themselves back up by right action instead of wrong action. I have a right to accept or refuse her ack into my life. There are a lot of boundaries now. She refused to talk to me, and now I have refused to talk to her about any personal subjects. She is the last person I want to share that part of myself with. We have managed a very simplified relationship, and when ego dramas rear their ugly head again, I tell her that it's not my job to fluff her ego up while she tries to destroy mine, and that the best thing for both of us is to take a break from each other.
It is how I've managed the relationship. So far there is more silence between us than talking, but that is fine with me. It keeps me having to deal with the narcissistic side of her. She only really wants to parade me around as her "successful daughter" to her friends any way. Aside from that, the relationship doesn't consist of much.

* I'm a truth teller and they love shouting me down and trying so hard to get me to stop talking. To no avail!!!
These people love lies and living in lies! Who is kidding who? 
I used to be abused for speaking the truth, but now I'm not scared at all. I succeeded in life, and that scares the hell out of them, so now they are quiet. 
I love how I could turn the tables on them. 

* Silencing someone is a gaslighting tactic. Don't be influenced by it. Just say to yourself, "I'm being gaslighted" and talk to people who can better handle the important things you need to talk about.
Remember that narcissists have their ego in everything they do and everything they say. That is why they can't hear you, and can only hear you based on how it is effecting their ego.
(written by a therapist)

* I'd get, "You never said that!" when I said it over and over and over again, but they'd shoot me down and tell me not to talk about it. Then when something happens that they don't like, and all of a sudden they pretend that I never talk to them about important stuff. It's a dirty rotten game, and I'm done playing it.

* With me, they shut me up when they don't want to hear what I have to say and then demand that I talk if I don't want to talk about something. They will punish me if I don't shut up, and they will punish me if I'm the one who wants to stay quiet and not tell them things. They have to be in control of when I open my mouth, what I say, how I say it, and what they don't want me to say. Sometimes there is literally nothing I want to say to them, and they decide that there is, that I'm keeping things from them. I can't win at their game and like another poster above said I can't listen to them any more anyway. They can't keep on subject and because of that they accuze me of things I never said, or even experienced. I think I just need to give up on them in terms of any more long discussions. I don't know oif that means no contact or just moving, but I'm in the process of putting my own life together.

* Growing up with parents who don't want you to talk, and can't hear what your saying is sooooooo hard! Its easy to fall into the wallflower role. Like trying to match the wallpaper so that they don't see you and pick on you. Once they pick on you, they don't want to hear what you have to say. Only they get to interpret the world around you. Your supposed to listen to them and get an idea of what is happening only. That is just not right. Their versions, even tho they spend way more time talking than we do are more insan, if we can't get more than a word in edgwise.
I think the reason why they like to talk about what is real is that they know they are out of touch with reality so much that the only way they can convince themselves and us that they aren't living in a fantasy is to persuade us and others that they are the ones with a grip on reality, never us.

* I am so allergic to being told to shut up and keep quiet that I no longer want a relationship with my parents. It was my way of giving them exactly what they wanted: quiet in their world forever.

* So do any narc parents care what we have to say? Or are they always more focused on getting us to shut up so that they can coerce us with their words?

* I think they know that scapegoats can't be coerced because we are allergic to them as authority figures. We know that what they have to say is only for their benefit. I don't listen to my parents any more than they listen to me which is almost never. I'm not going to have them talk at me and deny me a response. Not happening!

* My family is like a bad cult. My parents only give themselves permission on when to talk and what to talk about and most of it is BS. We are supposed to be entranced and follow the leader. Didn't work. I was the first one to leave.  

* Yep. My mother would say "I don't remember that." Or she would remind me of the terrible things going on in the world. Just another way of minimizing my feelings.

* I don't tell anyone what's going on with me anymore. Just 1 friend and my husband.

* Talking with narcissists is like walking in a minefield. You never know when they will blow up at you. I have no problem with keeping silent these days. They can tell me to be silent all day long if they want. Much more of a relief than when they demand gossip.

* I could have written this , im currently in the last few months at university and writing a dissertation.
When i was a child i was never allowed to express myself, and was told off talking about myself, in the dissertation we were told to write an artist statement which is talking about your self. I've found it very difficult to separate my personal self from my artist self. I was told today to talk less about myself and more about art. I understand what she was saying but it brought up a lot of past trauma. Im nearly 38. I've been refured for therapy but it could take a year before i see someone. It is such a hard road ...

* I am in a very similar situation. The waiting is hard. I feel I have suffered so much for so long it is time for me. I am worth it, and so are you

* I know exactly how you feel, people will abuse you and when you react to their abuse they will call you the crazy one

* I used art to express myself because I couldn't at home with my NM ruling the roost. I was encouraged by many teachers because they said I had talent. I thought it was one way to avoid feeling frustrated at never being able to express how I really felt and thought around her. If I dared to talk, she'd rephrase and correct everything to make it sound bad.
My father drank as his escape and refused to stand up to her no matter how awful she got.
Wouldn't you know that she couldn't stand my art, my last mode of expression. One day while I was at school she ripped it all up and told me that I was no longer allowed to make art. It broke my heart and a couple of my teachers told her that I had real talent, that I should be encouraged. She wouldn't listen to them, and when I got home she yelled, "How dare you get your teachers to call me! I will not stand for it!"
It was like she threw away my identity.
Somehow I managed to pursue my passion any way. When I was crying that my mother would just rip up everything I did, my grammar school teacher came up with the idea that she could save my drawings and paintings until I left home. She saved the work I did in high school too.
It was clear that I was only to be a drudge for my mother. I wasn't willing to accept that in the long run even though I had to accept it living under her roof.
I put myself through art college and I have been a practicing artist ever since. And I don't have a relationship with my mother any more.
God forbid I sneak around doing art instead of drinking like my father and eldest brother!

* I've heard that many narcissists disapprove of artist daughters. I wonder why that is?

* Probably because they have talent and the parent doesn't. Narcissists don't like anyone outshining them.

* Why not pick on male carpenters and woodworkers too? "They're making something that I can't make! Oh, no! Put a stop to that!"

* Yer right. There is a bit of a double standard there!

* Patriarchal society. They are proud of men and in competition with women.

* Mine focused so much on the past, that I dared to sneak art making into my life despite her disapproval, but had no trouble telling me that I focused on the past too much when a discussion got uncomfortable for her, which was about always.

* I can very much relate to this, it has been used against me many times.
Remember.... just because they say it doesn’t mean it’s true ( probably the opposite)
Something that I have found helpful lately is that I have been rephrasing their rubbish in my mind to the actual reality of the situation so for this one it would be...
“ I have seen exactly who you are from your past actions and behaviour and I will act appropriately on that information ”
They can call it living in the past or holding grudges or whatever they want but in reality who would keep touching a fire when they know it burns? Saying that something was in the past doesn’t excuse it at all, without a genuine apology and without a change in behaviour it is nothing more then manipulation.
It’s just another tactic to keep you exactly where they want you to be.

* Sometimes I find talking about things helps me heal or understand more. Then I find it easier to let go or in fact not let go sometimes and know that someone did something to me and I don't have to just forgive or feel guilty. I don't have to live in the past but understand it more good or bad.. so you talk but find the correct person or people to talk to. The narcissist will use what you say against you or say your crazy or you live in the past. They don't care or want to care about you. Sending strength and positive thoughts.

* Yep. Same for me. Therapy and no contact is the only way to peace. These people don't change.

* There is nothing wrong with you.. you’re allowed to talk about your feelings and hurt. People that tell you that you live in the past are invalidating you and shutting you down. Have your voice heard and speak up.
Similarly I’ve had parents treat me like this. Try and talk about something and I’m told I have problems. More like they are blocking and don’t want to acknowledge my feelings or their behaviour

* That's gaslighting. They love to ignore that you were hurt by them. If you got over it really fast, they'd say, "What's the matter with you?! You never think about anything?" too. It's a no win situation.

* Gaslighting. I can not say anything referencing my past or its ‘stop living in the past’. Narc families most toxic and invalidating mantra towards the scapegoat. Yet they are allowed to make jokes and poke fun about things in my past THEY’VE chose to make a topic to embarrass and exploit me.

* I love it when some family member comes to me and tells me to stop talking about family dynamics. They really, really love living in illusions and lies and posturing. Phonies to the max!! 
While I won't talk to them any more, poor pitiful things, I can just as easily talk everywhere else - and they HATE, HATE, HATE me because I won't stop!! And I have so much evidence to back up the false facades!
Hahaha

* I tried to make sense of why they feel allowed to talk about anything and everything, and why their own children, even when 40 years old, are not allowed to talk about anything except what narcissistic parents allow. There is simply no way to understand this. I found that the best thing to do is to share only with people who don't try to shut you up or shut you down. If they start that, it's time to walk away. They are just not safe people if they are doing that. 

* Oh, they act ferocious, but really they only act that way because they are wimps when the big bad truth finally shines a light on them. Once the truth is out there, they look like victims for a change, instead of us. 

* "The past is in the past" but only for you, not for them. They hold grudges forever. But it's their favorite saying to get you to shut up about any subject except for them!!! 

FURTHER READING

Stonewalling: Narcissist’s Silent Treatment Method - by Saul Mcleod, PhD & Julia Simkus for Simple Psychology
excerpt:
     ... Stonewalling involves withdrawing from communication and deliberately avoiding providing any information, feedback, or emotional response, effectively shutting down a conversation or interaction. ...
     ... Stonewalling is commonly observed in conflicts or disputes between individuals in a relationship. According to psychologist John Gottmann, this behavior can have serious consequences for a relationship because it creates a sense of disconnection and frustration between the people involved. ...
     ... While stonewalling is typically used as a way to avoid conflict, narcissists will use stonewalling as a tool for manipulation. ...
     ... The narcissist consistently ignores your requests, needs, or concerns, showing a lack of consideration or empathy for your emotions. If you speak to them about something important to you, they might dismiss you, ignore you, cut you off, or say something like “who cares” or “just be quiet.” They might also dismiss you by belittling or laughing at what you are saying. ...
     ... Feeling ignored, dismissed, or shut out by someone you care about can be hurtful and can lead to feelings of rejection and inadequacy. Social rejection and exclusion can evoke significant emotional pain. Stonewalling is a form of ostracism and is often interpreted as a threat to the body and brain. In response to stonewalling, our alarm system (fight/flight response) is set off. This can lead to feelings of panic, anxiety, depression, and/ or anger. Stonewalling threatens our fundamental need to belong.

For abuse to occur, a child’s voice must be silenced  - gcyp.sa.gov.au (Australian government site)
excerpt:
11 July 2017
     For abuse of a child to occur, the first necessary condition is that the child remain silent, that their voice not be heard. 
     This silence may be engineered by the abuser, using their status, fear or shame. It may be engineered by institutions that are passive in protecting children or complicit in covering it up or by adults and peers who are not alert to the signs or do not know how to respond. ... 

Silent treatment from parents: The psychological implications on kids and why it should be avoided - Times of India


Ways Manipulative Narcissists Silence You: Part IV (Narcissists enjoy making malicious remarks at a survivor's expense) - by Shahida Arabi for Domestic Shelters.org

Ways Manipulative Narcissists Silence You: Part II (Does your abuser shift blame, change the subject, name-call or nitpick?) - by Shahida Arabi for Domestic Shelters

How Narcissists Silence Their Partners - Narcissisms.com

Unknowingly Silencing Others – Are You A Conversational Narcissist? - by Tatiane Garcia, Executive Contributor for Brainz
excerpt:
     Have you ever noticed a friend who, despite giving you sporadic moments of attention, primarily uses your presence as an opportunity to unload their thoughts and feelings without truly listening to yours? Indeed, we've all experienced the one-sided nature of such "friendships." ...
     ...Growing up in a family of women, I was always fascinated by our unique social skills. However, none of us possessed the necessary skills to truly listen to one another. Taking into account factors such as our culture, environment, age, beliefs, and ambitions, I often listened to my sister's narrative with a certain bias. I sometimes disagreed with their wrong or incorrect views, comparing my struggles to theirs without realizing that the conversation was about them, not me.
     When we find ourselves in the opposite position, needing a secure space to express ourselves, we quickly realize our mistake in speaking. Often, we feel stifled, misunderstood, embarrassed or even smaller, and the conversation ends up revolving around the other person. The sensation of being ignored induces an immediate feeling of sadness and discouragement. ...


The Effects of Silencing Your Child’s Voice - by Dr. Ernest Waith, DMin. for Medium

Silent Treatment: Preferred Weapon of People with Narcissism - by Andrea Schneider, LCSW for Good Therapy






Thursday, March 21, 2024

A New Course on How to Break Through the Defenses of Narcissists?

Yes, there is a new course being offered to both professionals and "anyone interested" in how to break through the defensive behaviors of narcissists. 

On Facebook, the advertisement appears this way:


The writing below it says this:

Working with narcissistic clients is one of the most challenging tasks therapists encounter.

It becomes even more complex when faced with their defensiveness, grandiosity, and lack of self-awareness – all designed to guard against vulnerability.

So, how do we get through these layers of defense? How do we create a therapeutic alliance that encourages vulnerability and empathy in these clients? Even more so, how can we be effective when traditional interventions seem to bounce off their fortified walls?

To answer these questions, we've curated this comprehensive, targeted online course featuring 22 of the world's leading experts in treating narcissism. Take a look: https://www.nicabm.com/program/fb-narcissism-1/...

Another advertisement on Facebook goes like this:

(CLOSING NOW) Dissolving the Defenses That Sustain Narcissism - Expert 

The course features a well known psychiatrist, Bessel van der Kolk, MD who wrote the famous book, The Body Keeps the Score. This book is on the must-read list if you are going to college or graduate school and your major is a psychology degree or a Masters in Social Work in trauma research and/or trauma therapy. 

Some of the other names associated with this course are: Janina Fisher, PhD, Peter Levine, PhD,   Jennifer Sweeton, PsyD, Ron Siegel, PsyD, Lynn Lyons, LICSW, Russell Kolts, PhD, Zindel Segal, PhD, Shelly Harrell, PhD 

When you click on the link, you get this:

https://www.nicabm.com/program/fb-narcissism-1/

There is also a course on how to treat victims.

This is one of the advertisements for this course:

Helping patients heal from trauma is one of the most challenging things therapists do.  

It becomes infinitely more challenging when a patient is missing one key experience – a stable, secure relationship.  

So how do we work with patients who are missing those cherished relationships? Beyond that, what do we do when traditional talk therapies don’t work?  

That’s why we've created this short, focused online course with 5 of the world’s top trauma treating experts. Take a look: https://www.nicabm.com/program/a2-attachment-fb2/...

As for narcissists in treatment, I'm fine with professionals tackling this. However, if you've ever been in a personal relationship with a narcissist, or trauma bonded with one, and you suggest therapy with the idea that the narcissist is going to heal by examining and giving up on their defensive/aggressive strategies, and that by inference you will heal, and that your relationship will heal too, I don't see how it can work at all. They are more likely to rage at your suggestion that they need treatment. That is what fortification does; that is what grandiosity with defensiveness does; that is what only focusing on how much power, control and domination they have in relationships does. 

Also if there is a power differential between you and the narcissist where the narcissist thinks you are less powerful than they are, suggesting this therapy could be a disaster, and dangerous in some situations. That's my take on it.

If they want to go on their own, it's another story.

If this was me, I wouldn't even suggest it. I also say this from experience dealing with this type of personality disorder. Most of them don't look at therapy as a learning experience or useful; they look at it as a put-down, something they use to shame other individuals mental capacities, emotional capacities, inability to get along with others, or if they insinuate that you are mentally challenged for not taking orders from them. Because of this, most of them will not look upon therapy in a positive light because of the way they use it in conflicts and arguments: "You need to get a grip; you need therapy bad!", "You sound insane. You need to see a shrink," "You need to stop. If you don't, I'll get you committed" and so on.

I'm not sure how they take situations that have very little chance of being resolved without therapy (going together for instance, like in marriage counseling), but even there they mostly will be rooting for themselves and manipulating to get their own way, calling you crazy for resisting control and domination, putting themselves in a dictator position, deciding to be a lecturer, and it won't be productive. Psychologists who deal with patients undergoing narcissistic abuse generally do not advise going to marriage counseling at all, and actually say it should be avoided. They usually suggest detaching yourself from the narcissist instead.

Also, if they are sometimes willing to go to therapy they can become more sneaky covert narcissists. I just can't see any positive benefit of suggesting it to a narcissist at this time, and with the knowledge I have about the issues surrounding narcissists, unless you are a therapist, or life coach, or someone who just wants to take this course to learn something, I really think the narcissist would only go to therapy at your suggestion to find a way to show that they can tough it out and that it's an "easy course", or to be resistant to it, or to challenge it, or to prove to you that they can go but that it isn't useful to them at all because you should be in therapy because you're the crazy one. I think most of us have been around and around many, many times with these narcissistic defenses and the inevitable attacks that come with narcissistic defenses.  

I have not seen anyone in a "trauma bond experience" with a narcissist get anywhere except a worsening trauma bond (and that's after hearing at least a thousand stories from survivors of narcissistic abuse) -  nothing lessens the trauma bond unless they find ways to mostly separate. With a power differential (parent and child, for instance), the trauma bond is even more destructive and pronounced, and I doubt any parent is going to go along with a child, grown or not, estranged or not, who says their parent needs to be in treatment for their personality disorder, or that issues between you need to be worked out in a therapeutic professional setting.

But for a boss to put a worker with traits of Narcissistic Personality Disorder into a program of therapy, maybe it can help. The worker may do a better job, or be less contentious and less adversely competitive, stick to work rather than dirty gossip, and all of the other pitfalls narcissists fall into in the workplace, then it might do some good. How much good it does in anything other than a work situation, I don't know. Maybe they go home and kick the dog and spouse after therapy. Maybe not.

If you want to get some perspectives on what psychologists, therapists, life coaches and a little bit of the public are saying about this, I suggest reading the following comments (all of which are on the Facebook advertising pages for this course too - and available to see on that page for anyone).  


* OMG. Totally here for this!!! And super interested… You’re doing the Lord’s work💞 I agree, at the heart of it is a wounded child and TRAUMA!!! It’s also really hard for narcissists to change, but kudos to those who try ðŸ˜º Luv u Bessel!

* I experienced a client who after cutting through these barriers would silently cry during sessions because it was so difficult to see herself as being wrong minded and accepting responsibility for her behaviors. But even through the tears she seemed to slowly appreciate the therapy. I agree tools are important when dealing with narcissistic personalities. Some truly struggle with seeing themselves as good.

* I'm an experienced life coach over decades & humans never fail to inspire me ….to learn more … As I develop insights into this patterning … I’m a little freaked by how this information might be applied without experience / expertise. I love that we can develop insights .. just mindful that to walk this delicate topic needs support .. keep connected to supervision groups as you navigate this arena.

* I think the training along with the life skills that therapists excel, can empower and change lives. I do not have any misconceptions about their gifts, mission, and knowledge. I appreciate and highly respect the life path they have chosen. Some of the resources therapists and doctors find for their clients are coaches. I have worked with both. Professional coaches have their place as well. I hope that they have training and are certified. I'd loved to see coaches in our schools K-12 teaching mindfulness etc. I believe that there is a place for all people with a passion to hone their gifts, talents, and abilities to contribute to others.

* schema therapy has had good results with narcissism

* An empathetic narcissist seems like an oxymoron. And how many even seek treatment since they think nothing is wrong with them?

* they absolutely think something is wrong with them. Which is why that facade feels so real. It’s a fully realized self that puts all the things they hate about themselves and buried it deep as possible. It’s a defense/coping mechanism. It’s something that can often be triggered on or off too

* if you realize they feel everything and then deflect it, hypersensitive. The vulnerability is there.

* What type of narcissism is this course focused on?
As far as I understand, treating perverse narcissism or the narcissism of "integrated psychopaths", for example, can be counterproductive as these types of personalities use what they "learn" in therapy to continue disguising their condition and manipulating others.

NICABM

* If you click on the link to the program, there should be a brief description of the content that is talked about in the course. Hope this helps!

* I was very careful when exiting my relationship to give him as little information as possible that might make him more effective for the next woman. I had watched him learn and manipulate with me. The less we give them to improve their tactics, the better! --- This is one reason I would never work with someone with strong narcissistic or psychopathic traits.

* Think of narcissism, like most things on a spectrum. You are referring to the extreme end, which is more so just one aspect of antisocial personality disorder. I don’t believe that is what they are referring to in this advertisement but rather the mild to moderate range, which tends to be more associated with learned defensive strategies due to trauma/negative life experiences. People can also be very successful and have elevated levels of healthy narcissism that may be important to be mindful with how it comes out in times of stress. It can get confusing fast, for sure!

* Narcissism exists on a spectrum for sure. But if someone truly has NPD this would be difficult to treat as many professionals and researchers in mental health will say again and again NPD is hard to treat. This is why insurances don’t pay you to treat NPD. Hard to treat NPD. But yeah you can ameliorate narcissistic behaviors for sure as we all have done these as a result of maladaptive childhood attachments.

* patterns of behavior do in fact, validate a view point.
Society is being educated and taught how to spot abusive behavior.
The word abuse can replace the word narcissism in every situation.
the pattern of behavior is very identifiable quickly in these individuals
the number one pattern to show itself early is the compliment with put down technique to start the confusion and trauma bond early.
for example, wow, that is a nice looking sweater, but I think you belong in a more sporty looking outfit. This sweater is for someone older than you.
this is a compliment with a direct hit to your confidence.
the sweater is nice
but it's not for you
someone older would choice it
(the comment is supposed to reinforce you look younger but at the same time, makes you start to doubt you know who you are and what is right for yourself.)

* Patterns evolve rapidly and are identifiable quickly following the honeymoon period/love bombing stage.
when the victim looks back they see the strategic placement of doubt into the victims head started almost immediately
for me, it was the first date, the second day I knew the person.

* Exactly. I also take an attachment/trauma informed approach, because that's what I believe it is. They want to be seen. They want to know their existence matters. They feel like nothing, because needs weren't met. They are wounded. Yalom talks about the group approach as being the only way to really get them to heal. I have found this so helpful, as long as only one narcissist is in the group. Protect him from being called out in a cruel way, but let him be called out. Let him see that he's safe in the boundaries of the group leader, but the BS cannot be thrown around and the focus on themselves will only go so far. Others have problems and want to be seen, too.

* there’s no such thing as an “actual diagnosis.” It’s just a checklist with a bunch of behaviors listed and somebody just says “yeah I think you fit this” or “I don’t think you do.” There’s your super scientific diagnosis.

* Thank you for pointing this out. I recently watched a narcissist use therapy to strengthen their manipulation tactics and it was gut wrenching. Made me wonder if there is any hope at all for people with NPD.

* I knew a sociopathic woman who faked stability and empathy because of the $100k her mother paid for her to go to therapy. She caused turmoil everywhere she went, but I did not know this at first. She was psychologically sophisticated and knew how to manipulate with words.
     She was building a case to extort money from her parents as her father did things that messed her up. She tried to steal MY dad's house through the court system (she was a fake caregiver) so her mother gave her four houses worth $1.5 million to get her to leave everyone alone.
     When her father died, there was security at his funeral in case she showed up.
     It's been seven years and it's still hard to think about.

* Seen this myself unbelievable how they can learn to manipulate so well but can’t learn to follow through on integrity. Still blows my mind
     it was a nightmare. I should be able to write about this experience someday and publish it because it was like being in a horror film. It's people like this who predate on the elderly and children.
     Giving therapy to a psychopath just makes them more able to manipulate people for devious ends.

* that's what my husband has done over the years and I've become more manipulated and eventually labeled the narc in the smear campaign. Thank goodness for endless recordings to prove the truth behind his mask. Masks always slip!

* I'm not a therapist but this is a wonderful course for explaining how to deal with narcissism in every day life.
     Step 1: Don't
     - Tricky if it’s a family member!

* don't worry, I'm way beyond trying to change them! I'm just trying to understand what's going on for them. Neither live with me but they cause havoc in our family. One is coming to stay for 6 weeks while my husband's away so this is for me! The family member will be in their own suite so I am working on maintaining healthy boundaries.

* I'm wondering if it's a bi-product of societal conditioning within our current generation...not to say they didn't exist outside of this generation.... but with the break down of the nuclear family system... they seem more prevalent than ever!

* we need it because they are everywhere and a lot more common than ppl like to think.

* Unfortunately narcissistic patients are very sensitive to embracing their behaviors and opinions about themselves. It feels discouraging at the slow progress. But it’s possible with patience and dedication.

* respectfully, this is not the case for malignant narcissists , bordering on psychotic…..it just isn’t. Therapists need to consider taking the same course as victims. Block phone calls and emails. Don’t walk, run.

*extremely rare, typically not worth the trouble. Usually they become grifters.

* With patience and dedication anyone who wants to heal, can.

* yep, exactly that. Some it educates for the better and actually helps them, the others, teaches them how to evade getting found out again. It's a risk

* true! I’ve seen it over and over again . The most difficult of personalities.

* The people who need therapy are usually the ones who have been harmed in a close relationship with a narcissistic individual.

* I can’t even imagine having a profession where you have to deal with these people all the time. You counselors must have some upgraded steel grit.

* In my experience, the narcissist is only half the problem. The people that cover for and support the narcissist are the other half -- at least.

* Start with the therapists themselves. And the MDs.

* therapy and medicine have an in-built power imbalance. Some try to reduce the inequality as far as possible (never completely possible in that dynamic), some relish the role of ‘expert’ a little too much… We all have egos. Unfortunately the sense of power one can have if not careful in those fields often attracts those who will misuse it, consciously or unconsciously, to varying degrees along that spectrum.(Disclosure: I am a therapist working with health, a therapy client and a patient!)

* Monetizing Narcissism what a concept…

* Those of us impacted by narcissistic people in our lives can change our behaviors so we don't enable their dysfunction. We have power we can exercise that can effectively decrease the negative influence that narcissists put into the world.

* I would like to know more how to deal with one of the serious side effects of these attacks….anxiety. Sometimes the victim of narcissism wants to heal, but feels overwhelmed, incapable. It’s not a choice to experience anxiety.

NICABM

when you purchase a course from us you are given online access forever and can begin the course whenever you'd like. Our courses are geared towards mental health and healthcare practitioners, but people from all walks of life have been able to benefit from them. Plus, we have a 30-day money back guarantee if you decide the course isn't for you.
     I hope this helps!

* The core of narcissism is an extremely negative self-concept. They can't accept any more negative, which is why they often for periods of time can't consciously look at what's wrong (and to be honest most "normal" people have trouble with this too on a certain level), or be near people who think there is something wrong. It's very hard for them to feel safe in their imperfection, which makes the therapeutic alliance so hard to create.

* The NICABM courses are invaluable & never stop learning. I’ve learnt so much to help my understanding. My share was around my concerns for how practices are applied and how vital it is for us as practitioners to stay connected to supervision groups. I have a number of psychologists & specialists that I refer my clients onto as we bump into arenas that are not my expertise.

* no health professional, regardless of training or experience, should be free of being questioned. A good one will welcome it and be fully transparent. In addition, the most important source of feedback is our clients, or in this case, our target audience, not other "top professionals". As a psych of many years experience, i welcome and take on board all comments, criticisms and information, to help continually build my skills and provide a service that my client base actually find helpful.

* I am a manual therapist specializing in visceral and neural manual therapy of the Vagus nerve complex, and I have clients with complex trauma regularly being traumatized by Somatic Experiencing done by other therapists that should never be practicing this work.
It’s not ethical to traumatize your clients and develop trauma bonds with them as part of “healing” process. And it’s not necessary. Somatic Experiencing should not be applied with most people that it is used with for treatment of trauma history.
It’s probably only ethical and useful in a very few number of cases.. and should be used as a triage.. we as therapists should not be actively and purposefully triggering and traumatizing people in sessions.
A lot of techniques get taught to whoever has the money to pay for them, then those people use them with clients when they should not be using them.
I teach manual therapy to align the nervous system to shift away from the trauma response and start a path of healing… without more trauma.

* my experience with nearly every one I have treated and talked to not in my clinic that has had an SE session has described it as retraumatizing, so maybe you are the exception to the rule, but people are certainly not applying the somatic work correctly then, and that is a problem. I’ve not heard from one person that says it was actually helpful after they have stepped back from the trauma bond that it creates with the therapist. This is just my experience with interviewing colleagues, friends, and clients that have had the work. My philosophy is that people don’t need to relive any part of their trauma. The body can let the “score” go, with proper physical and energetic release and alignment. Just as a body can “keep the score” through a mechanism beyond consciousness, it can also let it go. No talking or retraumatization is necessary.
If you are interested in learning how, and the theories and science behind it, check out the link I posted.

* Unfortunately SE training is open to pretty much everyone so there are people without any education or license using SE. Also, if you're doing SE correctly, it wouldn't retraumatize because SE is all about titration and safety. Sometimes, I even say inevitably, you will come up against someone's window of tolerance and you may not know where the line is until you've crossed it. But, hopefully, a licensed therapist has been working that client prior to any trauma therapy, helping them build a toolkit of containment strategies for this very reason. trauma therapy is challenging. You will be exposed, however titrated, to the very things that traumatized you in the first place. I am a licensed clinical social worker who specialized in treating trauma. I have also been a patient in trauma therapy many times over. It's tough work, but with a skilled therapist it's amazing. EMDR, SE, IFS - these therapies have been life savers. I completely disagree with you that trauma can be completely "let go" first of all, and second of all I do not believe that it can be released by body work alone. I believe body work can be really helpful and release stuff. But it's not the be all and end all. That doesn't exist. If you understand complex trauma you would know people have deeply held core wounding narratives that cannot simply be massaged away. They have significant challenges with regulating their emotions, and often have significantly disrupted relationships because trust has been destroyed and they have experienced profound betrayal. These things cannot simply be resolved my manual therapy. I think you have serious blinders here and are biased. And honestly, unless you studied and are licensed in psychology, social work, counseling or marriage and family therapy, and then trained in other modalities to treat trauma, you have a very limited frame of reference to even discuss the treatment of trauma.


* If it was a blanket statement that I originally intended to include “all” mental health professionals in (which I never stated once that such a thing applied to all mental health professionals) perhaps your remark would be useful to emphasize “not all professionals”; I actually agree with you so why bring this up again?
Coaches, I did not imply, stated or by mind reading, that they are more likely to be trauma informed; only that I wouldn’t criticize someone for furthering their own personal education of what it means to be trauma informed *within their scope to know to whom they might redirect their clients to those who might help them better.
Professionals do not get the gilded “privilege” of being a gatekeeper to guiding people in need to their next steps. Any individual (coach, minister, volunteer, friend, etc) can help guide others to resources. No one need be limited to give such help. I’ve personally recommended friends get diagnosed for further treatment for cptsd and/or ptsd. Medical gaslighting is a common occurrence in the medical field. You can best believe I’m going to encourage ppl who are showing signs of cptsd or ptsd to seek help and not withhold such direction/resources if they request additional help or advice?
I’ve been seeing mental health professionals since middle school. I’m 41… I can count double digits for me personally for any type of mental health professional with which I have *not personally received trauma informed care. This is just me. Double digits. “Trauma informed” has evolved to mean different things even in the past 3-5 years. I’m grateful for the evolution for which Nicabm has shown commitment toward developing the next generation of supercharged advocates, no matter how many hours of Accreditation or licenses etc they have.
It’s much needed in the field. I’ve heard this by many patients in the chronic illness communities and I’ve experienced it on the receiving end personally. I’m not a fan of perfection but striving toward excellence in any pursuit.
Pathologizing is, in fact, a bigger problem than you are currently seeing from your credentialed perspective.
See the receiving side and you will hear a different story. I am in the trenches with many with chronic conditions.
I have changed many lives over my past 15 years’ experiences as a volunteer for one of the largest online health communities in the world for just *one of the conditions that I have.
I appreciate your credentials and they are noted. Your experiences will continue to evolve. And I’m giving you a free, valuable and unique perspective from having been in the trenches with 100k strong members with Hashimoto’s for almost 15 years. I will continue to advocate for underprivileged and undeserved communities to continue to put patients first and direct them to best possible resources, as I have done for free for years.
I have easily put in over 2,000 hours myself as a volunteer myself over the years for the express purpose of improving quality of life.
The importance of trauma informed and properly educated professionals is not lost on me. It most certainly is not and i reject any implications to that effect that I am not in touch with the patient side of this problem, personally or otherwise.

* In reply to “some patients are too complicated for life coaches”
That’s why you see multiple practitioners for however many conditions that you have.
I’m never ever going to criticize a coach for going above and beyond to point their clients to best possible resources and practitioners based on their needs in the moment.
I referenced that I myself received trained “peer support”
Peers understand a lot more than many would even realize. They point to resources just like life coaches do. Trauma informed professionals of all kinds simply do a better job at their jobs as trauma informed professionals on an “off day” and give supports better than seeing a pathologizing professional on their “best” day.

* you do know that Bessel Van Der Kolk is THE leading trauma expert in the world yeah?
You can't get much more experienced or expert than that

* I do - his work has hugely impacted my life & just reread Body keeps the Score for 3rd time

* I think this is why we go to 7+ years of school and work under years of direct supervision……4 years of undergrad, 1-3 years of volunteering, 3 years of grad schoo, 2-3 years of direct weekly supervision.
Coaching is !#@!

* I definitely agree. Do not operate out of your areas of certification and expertise. People can cause harm to other thru ignorance, even tho they had good intentions… a mind is a delicate thing to mess with

* messing with the mind is exactly what narcissists do to their victims...no certification required at all there!

* I think this is the difference between being a coach and clinician. Clinicians have ethical training and clinical training to work with this and every population with respect to every person’s human dignity however challenging the therapeutic work is and where every person is more human than any label or heterogenous population however homogenous it might seem. I agree supervision is critical for any therapist. I think where your comment is applicable is if folks who are not therapists are signing up for this course. I do think for topics like this is should be limited to licensed/certified therapists.
I’m actually relieved to see a course like this instead of the usual toxic, pop psychology driven articles, videos and even more disturbingly courses that vilify a whole group of people with any diagnosis - particularly ones associated with insufficient parental attachment, environmental and or genetic factors that are out of that persons control in ways that ironically are not very empathic or ethical. So be thoughtful with your comment because it reflects an inappropriate tendency in the lay world to arm chair diagnose, demonize and act out of lack of scope of expertise in ways that are dehumanizing and harmful.
There’s some great research on early therapeutic interventions in the juvenile justice system with adolescents exhibiting sociopathic traits (before their of age to diagnose) usually with oppositional defiant disorder diagnoses resulting in significant outcomes like profoundly lower recidivism and in one study a zero murder rate following release. That’s is a more extreme setting with kids exhibiting these traits, acting out criminally abs leading to incarceration suggesting a lot of promise for those with traits somewhere on the anti social scale who aren’t acting out criminally. As long as there is a lanaguage of demonization we get in the way of humane treatment and research.
We have an ethical obligation to get beyond this language of implicitly or explicitly vilifying any population as some sort of dark threat while also balancing that without having any naïveté about the risks of working with some individuals with certain diagnoses that pose some risks to the clinician. Hopefully this course has mindful discussions about these challenges in ways that do not demonize clients, which ironically lacks the very empathy as well that certain populations are demonized for having limited quantities of or ability to access. One thing that has given me hope for people with this and other more challenging diagnoses is brain scanning of individuals with high sociopathic checklist scores have shown they can can access empathy centers if they are instructed to try to although those centers don’t light up in response to certain exposures like those without these scores do. That to me suggests the possibility to cultivate interventions that help rewire those parts of brains. The key is to begin with not vilifying a population that gets in the way of research and humane care for all with human dignity.
We all also need narcissistic traits to function with healthy self concept, which is why there are positive and negative narcissistic and psychopathic traits. Acknowledging that is one way to move beyond a language of exclusively demonization or any demonization. We can present the negative traits as toxic patterns that no longer serve the individual and that were often coping mechanism developed by a resilient child to transcend what no child should face - whether biologically, environmentally or genetically.
Furthermore, we have been humbled into realizing how wrong our prognoses are. The fact that borderline personality was once considered challenging to treat and in some ways resistant to treatment but that now has been shown quite responsive to dialectical behavioral therapy is an example of how treatment failure is not the patients fault when there are not successful therapeutic interventions available - it is the medical fields lack of a treatment. It’s also interesting to me dialectical behavioral therapy is derivative of Zen Buddhism, which I think is another humbling commentary on the limitations of mainstream science and it’s tendency toward dehumanizing labels and negative beliefs about outcomes that set the stage for poor outcomes.

* therapists do focus on goals and moving forward. That is a common misconception most coaches seem to have. Trauma, mental health issues, poverty, abuse, and a ton of other problems can make it hard to reach goals or most people would have already done it. That's why licensed therapists can help by first diagnosing the issue and then coming up with a plan to heal trauma and find resources so that the person can reach their preferred future. There is so much that goes into it and it's frightening that "coaches" are dabbling in helping with things that take therapists at least 6 years of college, 1,000 hours of unpaid internship, two years of employed supervision time and passing two state licensing exams to be able to help with. It wouldn't be so bad if they weren't portraying themselves as qualified to help with personally disorders and mental health issues.

* I absolutely understand your point and it is scary how many people call themselves a coach these days. I’ve thought about this a lot because I’m actually a trauma coach with a psychology background. So just to throw some points out there to debate the other side, some things are actually limiting in the therapy world. Dealing with insurance and over focus on diagnosis (at least in a Eurocentric lens). And also, the academic world (which again is so important!) doesn’t really make room for life experience. I’ve done extensive trauma training and although it’s been integral in how I work, my “school of life” and spiritual experiences are the core of what I draw from. I think that’s why a lot of people are drawn to see a coach. I think there’s room for both. But I definitely agree how scary it is when people try to help others without proper training.

* wow, I didn’t know that narcissist behavior could change ! Maybe there’s hope in the world after all !

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